Infertility sucks

Two words. I only need just two words to describe how I feel. INFERTILITY SUCKS!!

My husband and I had a long talk. We were able to collect our thoughts regarding our 7- 8 years of TTC.

Our IVF journey is officially over, which means our TTC journey as well. It is a very sad day for us. We have (or I have) 1% of conceiving naturally. If that miracle EVER happens, great. If not... we've decided to face the reality. The reality is --we cannot have our own children. It sucks. It really does. It has happened to other couples, many other couples. Unfortunately we are one of them.

IVF is physically and mentally draining (and financially). It's an emotional roller coaster, and there is nothing you can do. I never thought this day would come. I was hoping for a happy ending. It wasn't to be. The 3rd unsuccessful IVF made me realize there has to be an end to it. We've been married for almost 11 years. We've become very fond of each other.  We are good to each other. Some couples have kids and don't have that "happy marriage". At least we have that. We were hoping to have both...

We started to talk about couples without kids. I mean "known couples" like famous people. If they can do it, so can we.
I said, "Beatrix Potter". She was married and had no kids. Who else comes to mind??

Unlike last time, I am not that devastated. First of all, I wasn't given time to build the anxiety of BFN. The period came all the sudden. You know how I feel?  I am just so sad. I am just so disappointed. I think I finally faced the reality that I couldn't overcome the infertility.

Again,

Infertility sucks.