Here we go again…

I was supposed to have a laparoscopy to treat my stage IV endometriosis. The doctor said it was my judgment call to have it done. I had one last March (2007) and he doesn't like multiple surgeries if not neccesary. The symptom was pretty severe during the last IVF cycle and I thought it had come back. Dr did the ultrasound and he didn’t think so but I had decided to do.

Then after all the meds washed out of my body, the symptoms just stopped. So I figured all the ailments were caused by the IVF meds and cancelled the surgery.

Dr wanted to meet with me to follow up for my options. Yeah, as if I have a lot of options to get pregnant…

Today, my husband and I had a consultation with the doctor and we’ve decided to give one more shot. And this is really the last one. It’s going to be another $5000… It was hard enough to spend that much money the last time. It’s harder this time, and we have decided (and know) that this is the LAST one. He is expecting extra $3000 coming in soon, so we’ve decided to go for it. Plus I’ll be 39 by the time this whole thing is over. For women over 40 with their own eggs, the IVF chances are around 1%. I have no intention of doing the IVF with somebody else’s DNA (egg). What’s the point of getting pregnant? I rather adopt.

Anyway, so we are going to do another cycle… At least I know what to expect and not to expect. It should be easier mentally (yeah...)

I’m supposed to call the doctor’s office in July when I get my period. Of course I could’ve started a month earlier (in June) but we don’t have $5000 by then.

I'm doing the cycle differently - no pills. They are going straight to Lupron and other stuff. Injection is different too. It starts with M. Not Gonal-F. Ohh I forgot. It was too much information today. I will sort out my head first and write again.