Everything is grey...

There were a few things I wanted to clarify at today's appointment.

1. Will I be eligible for the grant program?
2. Will I need another surgery for endometriosis?
3. What would be our success ratio considering the IVF we just had?

Basically, none were answered...

They don't have the money from the grant yet, so they don't know if or when they will be able to give us an answer (2 ~ 4 weeks?). There are people waiting for the grant money to do their first IVF which would have more priority than us (naturally). So the money may not reach our pocket.

According to the today's ultrasound, the sign of the current endometriosis is not so severe. So it's our (me and my husband's) judgment call whether to do surgery to remove the endometriosis or not. The doctor doesn't see it as necessity nor would it increase our odds of conceiving.

Anyway we scheduled a laparoscopy on May 29. The doctor said it wouldn't lessen our chance if it doesn't increase. My husband and I were pretty certain until this morning that I should have this surgery but now I'm not so sure now. Also I wouldn't go through with this surgery if we are not going to get the grant money.

The doc said the best cure for the endometriosis is to get pregnant. But having endometriosis is preventing me from getting pregnant. It just sucks.

I feel like I'm back to square one. I just need to wait for their finance department to tell me the eligibility.  If I'm eligible,  most likely I will have an IVF in August or something.