Another day of waiting...

My husband is still away. He is supposed to return late tonight (He is visiting his father who has terminal cancer). Today was the last day getting the progesterone injection at the clinic. It's only a 5-minute subway ride from home, so it wasn't that bad. It certainly is easier to get it done at home.

I took another HPT (2nd of the three) this morning. It was negative. It's Day 31 (12 DPT) today. Not even a faint line was there. You know, you hear people saying "at least I saw a faint line next to the test line"? NADA. It really was big fat negative. Probably it was silly of me to take another test after yesterday. I couldn't help it if you know what I mean.

Yesterday was St. Paddy's Day. I'm a drinker. I love to drink, however, trying to be a good girl, I didn't even have a sip on St. Paddy's day. I'm not Irish but who can resist "the official all-you-can-drink day"? I told friends that I was sick. That's the only way for them to believe that I wouldn't be drinking especially on St. Patrick's day. The thing is, nobody (except my husband of course) knows that I'm going through IVF. I put enough pressure on myself, I don't want meddling friends who have no idea what is like to be infertile to be inquisitive. Thank god for the Internet.

I was just thinking whether it is possible to do another IVF. Financially it's pretty much out of the question. Even paying for this round was hard. When I found out the cryopreservation would cost $1,600, I almost had a heart attack. Though it turned out it was an unnecessary worry.

We paid $5,000 plus meds (approx. $200 so far) plus the cost of anesthesia ($500). Co-pays prior to the actual IVF cycle has been $40 per visit (yikes). The nurse told me that I will have to get more progesterone shots and suppositories in case I became pregnant. I think the progesterone was the most expensive meds (with insurance co-pay). The original cost for my IVF was $11,000 I think (not sure anymore). Thanks to the government grant program, we only had to pay $5,000. It's still $5,000. That was tough.

I don't know if we'd qualify for another round of IVF. Even if we did, can we afford it without maxing out our credit cards?

Well, it's 2 days too soon to be worried about that, isn't it?

Another long day continues.